I am really glad to have u by my side…to take care of me when i am sick…to hear me out when i am sad…to have be with u 18 yrs…i have finally realised that…u r indeed a great sister…
We have alot of similarities actually..i feel so blessed to have u …
I feel very happy when i see u…cause..i can share anything with u….laugh together with u….and u have taken care of me really well..thanks..my dear sis…
Again…my heart is so pain now…
i have tried to stop the pain…but…i am not that strong to let it stop…the 3rd time i have got this kind of feeling..but this time…is the most serious …
i have asked myself not to cry anymore..because crying solves nothing…and i have cried alot of time edi..but somehow..just couldnt resist the pain…how i hope i can leave this place for awhile…to start a new life in other places…
Should i feel glad? some ppl wont even hear once I HATE U for a lifetime..but i have got it when i am 18…although i have told myself..dont take it too hard…but..still feel very pain…
take a deep breathe…i have to be able to recover on my own…to stop the pain as immediately as i can… i cannot let ppl worried abt me agn..
Suddenly come to the utter realisation that…the feeling of losing friends is almost the same as the feeling of losing my favourite thing….
Finally..u have agreed to let it go…sorry..for hurting u so much..and wat i can say is thank you for wat u have done to me….
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In your eyes..i am wrong..in his eyes, i am wrong too….for the benefit of myself? ya…for the benefit of myself…i tell her because i want to lose my one and only best friend since last time..i tell her because i want to see her transferring u…making me separate with my best friend…i tell her because i want to see 2 lovers separate…i tell her because i am evil..i am devil…i am busybody…I tell her because i got nth to do..i want to be seen as a great girl to her…
is it that what u think? u r hurt i know…u cant take it..i know..u r suffering alot of consequences i know…i want both of u to have a long and forever relationship and not only for a short time..i dont want u to be hurt…i dont want to do anything wrong…i dont want u to be gossipped..i dont want….no point explaining since u think i am wrong…
it is u who tells me…nvr mind..just say watever u want…it is u who asks me to stay because u dont want to be alone without friends…
SO many yrs of friendship ruined just like that…
I dont trust love and i always tell ppl..i believe in friendship..but now…i dont ..anymore..i will never be so silly anymore…
everything will end here…
Yesterday…is quite a busy day for me…
So many things happened at once and i feel so helpless when i received some news..I am confused.. I knoe i am doing the right thing but somehow i feel so helpless when i am placed in the middle..put myself in ur shoes…i have tried…but if i do that..i will just listen to wat is conventionally thought to be correct and not doing things the other way round..mayb u think it is alright and u feel u do nth wrong…but pls..we are living in a society and u are just a minority of it…it wont be able to sustain the society pressure and it will eventually come to an permanent end and u’ll be regret by then…No matter wat i have told u..u dont seem to take it..so i will stay far from it…i will try to wash my from all these…everything is up to u…
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I dont know wat can i say..I dont know wat decision shd i make..I dont want to see u neglect ur studies…I want to make my stand clear..but the thing is…CAN I? For so many times we have quarrelled but u still….sometimes hold on to something really make u hurt…asking u to give up will hurt u…not asking u to give up..u will be hurt even more…so wat shd i do now?? why is friend so hard to be?dont be too dependent on me..i think…the ultimate pro still lies on me…only till i accept…the pro will be solved…but i’ll tell u that the probability is almost equals to 0…How can i make u more positive but in the same time we are still friends?PUZZLED..@#$%^&*
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it is so confusing..it is indeed a difficult lesson to be taken up..and since i know i cannot take it..i wouldn’t take up the subject…I know i will fail eventually…I have seen alot of failures and i dont wish the repeat the same mistakes agn..
To love someone is not to own he or she…but is to aid him/ her in acquiring his/hers happiness..at least this is wat i believe…I hope i can be ur assistant…
13th of Apr 2007
A black friday…ha….
But i have done a great thing…I have gone bk to Omega..my former secondary sch..I miss all the teachers soooo much…And i have satisfied my wish all at once…
I have gone in my principal’s room and he had told me alot of things…He is quite an influential person in my life…He will be one of them i will be thanking for if i am a successful person in the future…I love him so much…his advice…his opinion…given to me….I appreciate so much…I will think it over..and make a new decision agn…
Finally…finally got another blog site…
I used to have one in MSN but…because of some reasons..I have stopped writing there a few months ago…Great to have another one here…
Frankly, i am someone who needs a place for me to express my feeling for i feel alot better when i tell things out…Sometimes…in order not to bother my friends too much..i like to write them in blog…
I will make full use of my blog here and i hope most of the stuff i share here will be a happy one and not the other way…
