你对我的好 我不曾质疑
对我的关心 我感激不尽
有些话想要告诉你 但却每每开不了口
“ 朋友，你明白吗？ 这地球不会为了谁没了谁而停止转动。。时间也不会为了谁为了谁伤心而缓下脚步。。事实是残酷的。。 成溺在一件事里，只会让你越陷越深。。没有人喜欢听事实。。但是唯有事实才能让你理智点。。
朋友，你要理性点。。不要让你的情绪牵着你走。。。你这样只会让自己失去自我。。
世界上没有一个人是可以让你百分百的相信的。。包括我在内。。 除了你自己，没有人有权。。有那份能耐去帮你。。去要你做任何的事。。不要这么容易相信人。。 因为人始终都是人。。一定会存在着私心。。做每一件事 都或多或少 有一些目的。。。
也许真的没有人能了解你真正的心情吧
不要对我这么好。。 我给不了你什么。。
it’s your own choice..no one has ever forced you into it..
This is what you have chosen.. you can never be able to return to the starting point and start all over again..cause you cannot afford to..
What you can do is to believe your very first choice..and no matter how tough it is..and it is going to be.. work hard and force yourself to go forward.. TIme waits for no man..
* No matter how much work I have..how not well I feel.. I know I still have to go on…cause this is the decision I have made.. I should have expected it.. YOU DESERVE IT!!. ha..but somehow.. I just feel like giving up… though I won’t really do so.. =)
你一定要加油！！ 加油！！ 不要放弃。。。
Remember …this is only the beginnin’…. there are still more to go..
这种感觉又来了 啊。。
好恐怖。。
是你让我慢慢找回有一个好朋友的感觉。。
是你让我知道原来朋友可以是这样的。。
但是 以前发生过的是好像又要在重演。。
我很怕。。
我知道你做错了。。 我不想看到你这样错下去。。
但是我能够怎样？？
为了你好 告诉你吗？？
还是为了维持之间的友谊而接受你的处事方式？？
是你告诉我 做朋友要坦白。。
但是
我真的怕。。
我怕失去的感觉。。
我不想再次失去。。
曾经 我告诉过自己。。 不要再把朋友看得这么重
这样也就不会这么烦
但是 原来有些是不是想不要就能不要的
看到你这样。。 我试过在谈话中劝你。。
但是 你好像没有catch 到
我。。。我。。。
我不知道我还能怎样。。。
希望有一天。。很快有一天。。 你会发现。。
It all started when I received an email from the AYA.. informing me that there will be a post exam unplugged night in the AYA cafe on the 16 of Nov, which is today.
I’ve been there twice before and I really enjoyed all the live singing performances by them. Everything is the same today cause there are still live performances, prize giving and refreshment served. The only difference is that I was there all by myself today.
The performance starts at 7 30 as I was told, so I left at about 6.45 from home and I went to the library to return my books. Then, I thought of going for my dinner at one of the cafes adjacent to the venue but I didn’t feel like eating after looking through the menu. To not starve myself, I went to the nearby 7 eleven and bought a can of milo and a chocolate-vanilla bread for my dinner.
As it was still early, I went to the Garden of Taylor’s college to eat my stuff. Upon finishing, I saw lots of people coming to the AYA cafe in groups. They are from UM, UiTM, Intac,and other colleges. So, at about 7.15pm, I went to the Cafe.I filled a form and I got a free badge and a poster.
Many came and introduced themselves. They are nice and friendly. All of them asked the same question- " DId you come here alone??". They seemed quite suprised to see me alone there.
I met a few new friends from both my college and other colleges and they are Hui Min (ADP), Kai XIn (A level, Taylor’s) and an Indonesian. It was really fun being there. All the songs and performances were really great.
I got an HIPPO by accident. The MC thought of throwing it to the UM people but he missed. It dropped in front of me and I have it. It is yellow in colour.
Towards the end, it was the most exciting moment. An SONY MP3 player was given away. 3 people were asked to go up the stage. I thought of going up but I didnt eventually. One of them from taylor’s college got it by telling a funny joke.
At about 10.15pm, I walked back to my hostel. And now, I am writing my blog to record today- the excellent unplugged night.
Remember?? I promised myself to make my life as colourful as possible even if I am alone and TODAY is just the beginning^^.
好想去今晚的campuscity’s unplugged night..
记得上一回，是跟大伙儿一起去的。。
很开心。。
这一次， 哎。。别说大伙儿一起去。。大家好像都不知道也。。好想念以前的感觉。。 现在嘛。。只有一个人去咯。。:(
好了。。。现在去努力。。不知道7点能不能够去呢？？？
" Why do you like to blog??"
A FAQ by many..
To me, the creation of blogging is magnificient. It gives many a chance to express themselves in whatever way they want. It is like a emotion bin because you can carelessly express what is in you at that particular moment.
Sometimes, when I’m down or depressed, the first thing I have thought of is not my handphone message box, not my phonebook, not my friends, not my family. It is my blog that I first thought of. It has probably become my habit to blog whatever that it is in my mind at that instant.
Sometimes, to find a friend to tell all you have at every instant is quite a difficult task. People might be ok with it initally but as time goes by, they will tend to be quite frustrated if you call them just to tell them what you have in mind. They have their own work, own emotion and own habits. Therefore, bloggging is the best way.
Blogging does help me alot. It is because I’ll dump all my anger, sadness into the bin and it helps me to feel better.When I write, I can be smiling, laughing or crying. If I am willing to dump them here, It means that something has made some sense in me. I’ll start reading my blog again and again and it enables me to be calmer and cooler when facing that situation.
Also, it helps me to record down what has happened, either sad or memorable things. For this year alone till now, I have blogged for 76 times. It has recorded all that have happened to me. If one day, I can’t remember anything, I can refer back to my blog. If one day, an angel brings me away all of a sudden, at least my family and friends will know what was in me before everything.
~ When I am sad, the first thing I wish I can do is to write down everything …~
it’s like a shoulder…where I lie my head on to cry..
It’s like a bin…where I dump my negative emotion..
It’s like a box..where I keep my happiness..
^
Thank you,Elaine…
I’m so blessed to have met you..
You are the one who is there for me during my saddest time of the year..
You are the one who holds my hand and prays for me when I cry…
You are the one who always keep me in your mind when you buy things…
You are the one who cooks for me when you have chance…
You are the one who cheers me up when I am down…
You are the one who destresses me when i am sad…
You are the one who bought medicine for me when I am sick…
You are the one who shares all your good things with me..
You are the only one who tells me " I want you to have your confidence back in friendship…"
To have know you, is a blessing..
THANK YOU…..ELAINE…
THANK YOU FOR UR CONCERN…I AM SO BLESSED…
好想说声我好想念你
好想在听到你的笑声
好想一年前的我们
好想一起开玩笑的日子
好想。。
不管过了多少个月。。
表面上看起来好像放下了的我。。
其实一直都不曾放下过。。
在我心深处。。
失去你的那道疤
依然不时隐隐作痛。。
没想到。。
这短短的几个月
竟然发生了这么多事。
没想到。。
这短短的几个月
让你我都改变了。
没想到。。
五个里最好的我们
竟然会走到这步田地。
唉。。。
感叹啊！！
现在的你已不是我认识的你
当然
现在的我也已不是你当初认识的我。。
回想从前的我们。。
我终于明白当初旁人羡慕的眼光
也好羡慕当时的我们。。
只因知道我不会再拥有。。
~回忆好美。。好想回到从前。。但。。只能深深地感叹。。因为为时已晚啊。。~
十八岁了的我，还是要你为我操心。。
我真没用。。
从小到大，最让你操心的就是我。。最让你花心思去照顾的也是我。。
最让你花钱的还是我。。最爱跟你顶嘴的也还是我。。
但是 不管我在怎样恶劣 你最疼得还是我。。
妈妈。。对不起。。。
做是毫无条理，不会照顾自己的我总是让你操心。。
我哭不是因为生气你骂我。。而是气自己又让你费心了。。
你身体不好。。我没办法在旁边照顾你。。还天天让你操心。。。我真得不应该。。对不起
我一定记住你所说的。。。我会努力改变自己的坏习惯。。会好好照顾自己。。
妈妈。。不要担心。。。
sorry..
Everybody is going back to JB..Some of them have already finished their finals and are enjoying now..
As for me, I haven’t even finished my AS finals.. -_-
This exam really drags for too long and is really tiring..5 weeks of exam period is making us crazy… Although it is going to end "soon" , we aren’t given holidays straight after the lengthy exam duration…We’re going to stay on….for another 2 weeksssss…to catch up with the A2 syllabus..
For the whole of 7 days, I’m going to be lonely for everybody is going back to JB, including my sister… I don’t feel that lonely here because of her presence…She always brings me out and when I’m down or stressed, she will think of some ideas to cheer me up…When I can’t focus, she will intentionally come and pick me up and bring me to other places to study..If i tell her that I can’t focus in that particular place, she will bring to somewhere else…I’m really blessed..
Now, she is going back for holidays and I need to be alone here again…all my friends are going back too..many may ask," why don’t you??"
But, seriously I cannot study when I am back to JB and I’ll definitely screw up the last 3 papers..Even if I am willing to sacrifice all these, I still will create alot of problems for my parents if I go back…I don’t want them to be so tiring trying to sort out my transport problem…Since I will be going back weeks after, I think I’d better stick to the originalm plan…
HMM..I think is time for me to learn to make my life as colourful..even without anyone…After all, I’m going to lead the same life soon…
Erm…I think I should plan now…if not, the 7 days will be wasted..
^^
